My First Born Babyyyy!!!

Hi Guys!

I am grateful to tell you that I've finished writing my first book. Yayyyy!!!!

These six-page teaser will launch on November 8, 2023. Then, the complete book will be launched in half of November. 

The stories of this book are from my own stories. Yes, it’s me. The kangaroo baby! Hehe Don’t worry, baby; they’re not about pain, hurt, or suffering. This book is my first-born baby that will tell you how my Earlier 2023 was full of happiness. I decided to write this book cause there are many memories that I want to keep forever. 

I am the type of woman who couldn't be expressed enough, so in this book, I want to be kind to myself to give space & place that could be expressed enough. 

That’s pretty how I fell in love with the one that I dreamed of being married to. How the love feels so strong, & how lucky I am to meet him. How I really wanted to type ‘Baby, I am so lucky to have you in my life’ every night. And so many kind people are always around me on every up & down, also on this book story. 

Don’t forget to download it when it is available on Google Books! Hehe, thank you for all the support guys!!!! :)

a Letter for 10/27

Dear Mr. February,

I am grateful to hear you are doing well there.

It's been a while since you left me, but honestly, I still wish you were here with me.

The past eight months have been perfect for me. There are no words that could describe how much I love you. I genuinely thank you for always taking care of me.

On the first day that I didn't hear anything from you, I was so confused. I told myself to be patient and wait; it didn't matter to be separated for a while. But then, my hand was shaking.. there's you in the background of my friend's story that I saw accidentally. You were there with a smile; everything was just fine for you. Not too long, you made a story about enjoying your time. I was lying on my bed, trying to hug myself tightly. I was crying without anything; my heart was in pain. 

And day by day, there are no texts or phone calls from you. I never understand why you never feel sorry to make me that way; I never know why you never care anymore. I miss you; I miss everything about us. Till I found out you have deleted our pic from your account. It's just one pic you ever posted, but then you deleted it. 

I realized that it's over for you. You seem to have reached the finish over there, even though I was still carrying so much pain. I realized why you never cared for me, why you ignored me; I learned everything. This morning, I was crying till 3 a.m., then someone told me that you were having fun with another girl over there; that was enough to kill me.  

I love you, although after what you have been did, i still love you.

But I know it wasn't me anymore; I was just a stranger to you. The world seems darker without you. I wish there was your number calling me on my phone, wishing you nothing but to come back. 

I have learned to forgive you, to accept what happened. 

Be good over there, and stay healthy.

 & lastly, I love you.

- you'll always live on me.

kucing-kucing ku 😍❤️

Halo, udah lama banget ngga nulis kayaknya hmmm…

Sekarang aku punya 8 kucing yang lucu-lucu banget loh.. sebenernya 9 tapi Darell udah duluan pergi (Next aku bakalan ceritain Darell pokoknya Darell skg udah ngga sakit lagi ya nak..) nama mereka Barley, Grey, Dash, Encon, Cemong, Watwat, Batman, sama Eng si avatar ❤️ Namanya lucu-lucu kaaan? 

Mereka ini anak-anak baik banget dan ngga pernah sama sekali nakal loh.. aku selalu ajarin sama mereka buat saling sayang satu sama lain, paling penting nggak boleh berantem dan harus ngajak main sama-sama.. Sekarang Encon lagi kena flu doain ya cepet sembuh biar jumpalitan lagi hehehe..

Akhir-akhir ini aku lagi hardtime, saat aku harus nyembunyiin perasaan yang entah gimana orang-orang terdekat malah kaya yang ngebentak dan ngejauhin, orang-orang yang aku pengen banget dapet pelukan dari mereka buat sekedar ngeringanin perasaan aku malah keliatannya benci banget sama keberadaan aku, ada saat-saat aku kayaknya down banget cuma bisa nangis tapi gak satu orangpun kayaknya peduli atau tanya aku kenapa… tapi waktu pulang kerumah dan liat mereka semua kayaknya damai banget.. anak-anak baik ini selalu terima aku, selalu nunggu aku pulang dan selalu sayang aku biarpun banyak banget kekurangan aku.. kayaknya saat-saat kaya gini, saat kayaknya dunia benci banget sama aku, aku bersyukur banget punya mereka semua… ❤️

Kalian pokoknya harus sehat-sehat, panjang umur, harus temenin aku terus ya meskipun aku nggak punya banyak hal di diri aku buat kalian tapi aku akan selalu berusaha kasih yang terbaik untuk kalian ❤️❤️❤️